To Capital T,

Dedicate to capital T, 

Wherever you are now, 

Whatever you do now, 

I hope you're just doing fine,

It's been a long time we're not keep in touch, 

I pray to Allah, 

Your journey as a son, brother, friends, caliph and worker will get blessed from Him. 

Aamin.

Our friendship, 

Our relationship almost 5 years until the day that we last contact. 

Never mind, It's a fate. 

Here I go. 

May your day always sunshine and brighten up.

Thank you for being my good partner for the past five years. 

I'll appreciate it and keep it as a warm memory. 

May your find your true love,

Sorry for hundred times from me. 

Ending

Times is limited now,
If had a mistake,
Forgive me,
I'll stopped and end all my entry here,
I'll stopped blogging for now, 

I'll not deleted this blog, 

Because I want to share, 

Share all my happiness and sadness,

Pray the best for me,
Hope that,
The person who always came here,
Stay happy,
Stay success,
Stay healthy,
Stay awesome,
For your own sake and future,
Don't care about what others said,
Just believe in you,
Because,
You deserve it.

Treatment

Bad,

So bad, 

I need to be serious about this, 

My fingers keep trembling, 

Trembling until drop a things, 

This is the symptoms, 

Symptoms of thyroid disorders, 

I'm give up to take any medicine. 

Sometimes I'm just skip my daily medicine, 

I don't want to take any medicine anymore, 

I'm just want to live like a normal person, 

Like a healthy woman, 

Nowadays, 

My mood, 

My attitude, 

My hormones, 

My personality, 

Uncertain unusual uncomfortable, 

Too complicated for me to handle myself, 

Doctor advise to see him every 3 weeks, 

Because I need that treatment before cell cancer active, 

I don't want to put a high hopes for now, 

Just follow the flow and faith on Him. 

Even He want to give me that illness, 

I'm ready with His test.  

Love

Good morning with a cup of coffee, 

Good afternoon with a plate of carbonara,

Good evening with a cup of tea, 

Good night with a sweet dream in mind, 

Tomorrow will be another day that we need to keep breathing, 

Because, 

Allah love us. 

Request

Two request, 

From a person that I know for 4 years, 

Wherever you are, 

Whatever you do now, 

Even you're trying to go far away from me, 

Even day by day you're faded,

At least I want you know this, 

Please, 

Treat me like a woman not a stuff, 

Woman and stuff are different just in case you don't know that, 

This matter keep repeat again and again, 

Apologize from both of you or even from me, 

Words of apologize that doesn't give any value now, 

Because the same thing keep happen again, 

I don't know what you're trying to planned, 

But still I've a feeling,

If you can't give commitment of this relationship, 

Please stop treat me well and don't be kind to me, 

It's hurt me so much, 

Like an idiot person here waiting your news everyday, 

But, 

You're just fine there, 

Thank you for treat me like now. 

Ending with speechless. 

Past

Hey, you

Do you still know me ?

Do you still know that I'm exists in this world ?

No, you're not. 

Day by day, 

Time to time, 

Keep passing by,
The person that I love, 
fade away, 
far away,   

I've just remember back, 

Our first meeting, 

Our first conversation,

Our first moment together, 

Don't you miss it ? 

Do you still remember that ? 

No, you're not. 

I miss you,

I miss you that I know first, 

Having a great time together, 

Having a sweet conversation, 

Having a beautiful moments, 

It's just only me,

Only me missing our past time,

But,

But it's just our past, 

Not now.

Not right now, 

Never mind,  

Just enjoy your life, boy.

I'm not stopping you. 

But, if one day. 

You're not getting any news about me, 

Be happy and treat others well than me.