Thank you Allah

Hi and assalammualaikum everyone, 

 Today is the dayyyyyy. Day that I will get my result for this semester. Now I'm in 2nd year second semester. This evening at 3PM, the result was came out. So, I can't wait to see it actually but at the same time. My hand and my eyes won't to see and click "Result" button. 

And, since the server always busy. So, I'll wait for 15 minutes to make it that server turned to normal and not loading too long. Yeah, it's already open *can't breath. Too slow. After that, when I see my result. One big smile from my face. One word was came out from my mouth "Alhamdulillah". One drop of tears from my eyes. I can't believe it. Alhamdulillah I've got a good result for this semester. I hope that I can improve better for the upcoming semester. 

Even my second year was too hectic. I'm trying and keep trying to survive alone there. Yeah degree life is hard for me. But my family and my friends always keep give a positive motivation words for me when I'm feel down or give up did something that I can't. This semester also I need to face so many problems. But I did it to manage my mood and settle all the problems. Thank Allah. 

Alright, I'm ready for this special semester. Ready to face all the core subjects. Since I'll take the 3rd year subjects. So, maybe the free time for me will be different or else. Because like my friends that already final year which graduated said the 3rd year and 4th year, honestly were really hard and tough. Keep going, Ili. I know you can survive and manage your time to study and do a project. 

Yes, I will. I must do a good and good attitude, good planner and good person. Never ever try to far from Allah. Because, only Him that decide to give you pass or failed.  Only Him that give a job or not. Anything Allah will give to us as long as we do not forget all that Allah commanded us.

 For those do not accept the result. It's okay. Keep positive. Do the best for next time. In syaa Allah, the good result will come at the right day and time. Chill and don't ever give up. Tajdid niat and did all this for Allah, parents and families. 

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Okay, since I'll start my new special semester soon. So I'll get busy for a months or 2 month or more. So girls, keep healthy and happy always because by just the way you are now. Is already make you pretty and sweet 💗

Alhamdulillah

Assalammualaikum everyone, 

Happy. I'm so happy today. Alhamdulillah, almost 2 years mama keep going the treatment for thyroid cancer. And today, the result was coming out. Guess what ? Mama announce at Ismail's whatsapp group this evening. At that time, I was going out with my cousin. And when the notifications goes up, I opened and read it. What a happy news for my family. 

Oh Allah, thank you always hear what we request from You. Thank you for giving strength and patience to mama. May You always have besides her no matter happen to me. 

Take a deep breath *phewww. Alhamdulillah, mama already free from thyroid cancer *crying. I still remembered. Two years ago, while I'm studying at Politeknik. At that time was busy meeting with club at Pusat Islam. And suddenly I got a phone call from Abah and he told me that, mama want to do big operations. Such a shock news for me. Abah told me to accompany mama at the hospital for a weeks. 

After mama done the operations. Almost two days mama doesn't wake up because of dose medicine that doctor gave to her to high. At that time, only myself besides mama. Abah are not allowed to stay in the ward because the ward only for a woman. So I decides to stay there until mama become more stable. 

A day before Hari Raya Aidilfitri, doctor said that mama already can discharged. But still, mama can't move freely yet at that time. But, until today and the news that we get. It's make me cry.

Thank you mama. You are a strong mother that I know. Patience and always keep positive even you feel down sometimes. Don't worry, we always stay besides you. Always love you. Even one of us already gone. But our heart connected each other. Thank you for being a good mama and strong mama. I'll follow your courage.

 Alhamdulillah, Allah listen to our du'aa. I hope I can be strong like you, mama. Pray for me too. Abah, Acik, Abe, Kak Long, Abang Syawal, Farisya, Rayyan, Future babyy and Lin love you so much, Mama. Thank you everything and forgive us. 

Don't resist your parent. Do good things to them before they 'go' first.

Special semester

Hi and assalammualaikum olls, 

It's been near two weeks now. Oh my god, why so fast ? I've just thought that, yesterday I'm finish my final examination. But now, I'm already need to prepare myself for upcoming special semester. I hope, everything going smooth. 

This upcoming semester which is my special semester for second year, I think the subject that i decide and already define was a little bit hard. Um, actually not little but more and definitely the subject's very hard because that's a core subject for Electrical & Electronic Engineering Department. 

I wish and hope that I can focus and be more concentrate since I don't need to think other problem for now. I'm find the wisdom now. Since my health not stable right now. I will make sure that I need a good rest, healthy meal and exercise. And not forget to do next check up. Pheww, what a busy I am. 

I need to do examination for endocrine to see the result of Thyroid Stimulating Hormone. I need to know the T3 & T4 result, whether the T3 is high or not. If yes, I need to prepare mental and physical to do whole treatment. 

Actually, when I got the result from Hospital Pantai Kota Bharu before this, I'm still not believe the result that I see with my eyes. But, Allah already planned and fix it to me. I've just need to faith with Him. Maybe there's hikmah. 

So, let's end here with keep healthy and keep happy.

No wonder

Hi and Assalammualaikum dunia. 

Last 3 weeks, when I'm had my final examination. Two days before my first paper, I've just discharged from warded Hospital Serdang because of high fever. I don't know why I'm always get fever, shaking hand and headache sometimes. 

Is it because of stressed ? Study hard ? Or because imbalance meal per day ? Else ? Today I've just take blood at my auntie's clinic for examination. This Sunday the result will come out. I hope there's nothing serious. Let me care of my family first. Even or if I had a big problem (health), at least I'm not feel guilty. 

I just wanna focused on my family and myself. Not forget my beloved new sibling (girlfriends) DIPS. Only them can understand what I'm feel now. May Allah bless you, girls. 

Ending with, I love and miss to person who know me and a person whose already go. 

Tremor, that's me.

Hi and assalammualaikum.Today I will about Tremor. Let's focused it. 

“What is tremor?

Tremor is an unintentional, rhythmic muscle movement involving to-and-fro movements (oscillations) of one or more parts of the body. It is the most common of all involuntary movements and can affect the hands, arms, head, face, voice, trunk, and legs. Mosttremors occur in the hands. In some people, tremor is a symptom of a neurological disorder or appears as a side effect of certain drugs. The most common form of tremor, however, occurs in otherwise largely healthy people. Although tremor is not life-threatening, it can be embarrassing to some people and make it harder to perform daily tasks”.

“What causes tremor?

Tremor is generally caused by problems in parts of the brain that control muscles throughout the body or in particular areas, such as the hands. Neurological disorders or conditions that can produce tremor include multiple sclerosis, stroke, traumatic brain injury, and neurodegenerative diseases that damage or destroy parts of the brainstem or thecerebellum. Other causes include the use of some drugs (such as amphetamines, corticosteroids, and drugs used for certain psychiatric disorders), alcohol abuse or withdrawal, mercury poisoning, overactivethyroid, or liver failure. Some forms of tremor are inherited and run in families, while others have no known cause”.

“What are the characteristics of tremor?

Characteristics may include a rhythmic shaking in the hands, arms, head, legs, or trunk; shaky voice; difficulty writing or drawing; or problems holding and controlling utensils, such as a fork. Some tremors may be triggered by or become exaggerated during times of stress or strong emotion, when the individual is physically exhausted, or during certain postures or movements.

Tremor may occur at any age but is most common in middle-aged and older persons. It may be occasional, temporary, or occur intermittently. Tremor affects men and women equally.

A useful way to understand and describe tremors is to define them according to the following types. Resting tremor occurs when the muscle is relaxed, such as when the hands are lying on the lap or hanging next to the trunk while standing or walking. It may be seen as a shaking of the limb, even when the person is at rest. Often, the tremor affects only the hand or fingers. This type of tremor is often seen in patients with Parkinson's disease. An action tremor occurs during any type of movement of an affected body part. There are several subclassifications of action tremor. Postural tremor occurs when the person maintains a position against gravity, such as holding the arms outstretched. Kinetic tremor appears during movement of a body part, such as moving the wrists up and down, while intention tremor is present during a purposeful movement toward a target, such as touching a finger to one's nose during a medical exam. Task-specific tremor appears when performing highly skilled, goal-oriented tasks such as handwriting or speaking. Isometric tremor occurs during a voluntary muscle contraction that is not accompanied by any movement”. 

“What are the different categories of tremor?

Tremor is most commonly classified by its appearance and cause or origin. Some of the better-known forms of tremor, with their symptoms, include the following:

Essential tremor (sometimes called benign essential tremor) is the most common of the forms of abnormal tremor. Although the tremor may be mild and non progressive in some people over a long period of time, in others, the tremor is slowly progressive, starting on one side of the body but affecting both sides within a few years. The hands are most often affected but the head, voice, tongue, legs, and trunk may also be involved, typically to a lesser extend than the hands. Tremor of the hands is typically present as an action tremor. Head tremor may be seen as a “yes-yes” or “no-no” motion. Essential tremor may be accompanied by mild gait disturbance. Tremor frequency may decrease as the person ages, but the severity may increase, affecting the person's ability to perform certain tasks or activities of daily living. Heightened emotion,stress, fever, physical exhaustion, or low blood sugar may trigger tremors and/or increase their severity. Onset is most common after age 40, although symptoms can appear at any age. It may occur in more than one family member. Children of a parent who has essential tremor have a 50 percent chance of inheriting the condition. A variant in the gene LINGO1 has been identified as a risk gene, although not all individuals with essential tremor carry this variant--which also can be present in people without essential tremor. While essential tremor was thought not to be associated with any known pathology over many years, recent studies suggest that there is a mild degeneration of certain parts of the cerebellum in individuals with essential tremor.

Tremor can result from other conditions as well. Alcoholism, excessive alcohol consumption, or alcohol withdrawal can kill certain nerve cells, resulting in tremor, especially in the hand”.

“How is tremor diagnosed?

During a physical exam a doctor can determine whether the tremor occurs primarily during action or at rest. The doctor will also check for tremor symmetry, any sensory loss, weakness or muscle atrophy, or decreased reflexes. A detailed family history may indicate if the tremor is inherited. Blood or urine tests can detect thyroid malfunction, other metabolic causes, and abnormal levels of certain chemicals that can cause tremor. These tests may also help to identify contributing causes, such as drug interaction, chronic alcoholism, or another condition or disease. Diagnostic imaging using computerized tomography or magnetic resonance imaging may help determine if the tremor is the result of a structural defect or degeneration of the brain.

The doctor will perform a neurological exam to assess nerve function and motor and sensory skills. The tests are designed to determine any functional limitations, such as difficulty with handwriting or the ability to hold a utensil or cup. The individual may be asked to place a finger on the tip of her or his nose, draw a spiral, or perform other tasks or exercises.

The doctor may order an electromyogram to diagnose muscle or nerve problems. This test measures involuntary muscle activity and muscle response to nerve stimulation”. 

Are there any treatments for tremor?

There is no cure for most tremors.The appropriate treatment depends on accurate diagnosis of the cause.

Some tremors respond to treatment of the underlying condition. For example, in some cases of psychogenic tremor, treating the patient's underlying psychological problem may cause the tremor to disappear.

Symptomatic drug therapy is available for several forms of tremor. Drug treatment for parkinsonian tremor involves levodopa and/or dopamine-like drugs such aspramipexole and ropinirole. Other drugs used to lessen parkinsonian tremor includeamantadine hydrochloride and anticholinergic drugs.

Essential tremor may be treated with propranolol or other beta blockers(such as nadolol) and primidone, an anticonvulsant drug.

Eliminating tremor "triggers" such as caffeine and other stimulants from the diet is often recommended.

Physical therapy may help to reduce tremor and improve coordination and muscle control for some individuals. A physical therapist will evaluate the individual for tremor positioning, muscle control, muscle strength, and functional skills. Teaching the person to brace the affected limb during the tremor or to hold an affected arm close to the body is sometimes useful in gaining motion control. Coordination and balancing exercises may help some people. Some therapists recommend the use of weights, splints, other adaptive equipment, and special plates and utensils for eating.

Surgical intervention such as thalamotomy and deep brain stimulation may ease certain tremors. These surgeries are usually performed only when the tremor is severe and cannot be controlled satisfactorily with drugs”.

  

Destiny

Hi and assalammualaikum. 

Just a short story and memories that I just want to share with you guys. Yesterday at my auntie's clinic. I've just take an oxygen. Just because of I've got a high fever and hard breathing. 3 hours with that machine (oxygen gases). Feel sleepy and calm. And today the temperature already turned to 39.5 Celsius. Alhamdulillah.

This morning I'm going to my auntie's clinic at Jerteh again. I ask her,  "Why my hand always like shaking after do some heavy work?, Why I'm always hurt at my stomach near ovary?, Why my period not stable, it's already 4 months?", Mak Ngah. And she said that, that illness of shaking hand is one of the symptoms of thyroids cancer that called Essential Tremor. But for my age is still early for me to get cancer. And then she did ultrasound to me. So she suggest me to take blood tomorrow morning because she want to do examination. From the result, we can know, how many percentages risks that I have that thyroids cancer, hormone and blood.

She explained clearly this photo. I'm just take a deep breath and istigfar. What should I do now? Why me? Why right now ? This photo shows my ovary. *i don't want to share a detailed, sorry. 

I hope that Allah always make me strong and give me strength to make sure Abah, Mama and my siblings always happy with me right now. When one day, I'm not in this world, I hope there's a new person will take care of them. That's only my hope.

I hope when the result are coming out, I will accept its as my fate. 

"Dear MTH, if you read this I hope you can understand clearly and move on with your new life and new world. I hope that you start find someone more special and know someone special not me. So that, you can getting early marry like you want before this. I pray that your life always success, blast, happy, ease from Him. Thank you for letting me know your family and your world. I will keep it as a sweet memories. I'll appreciate it and you did a good choices. Thank you again." 

I pray that all of you, will always be healthy and blast from Him.