It's been a while I'm not updating my blog.
Now, I just have that feeling to share something with you guys.
Something that bothering my mind.
I think this is not the first time it happen.
But this time.
I'm totally exhausted with this world.
Maybe it's not the right time yet for me to feel how to be loved by someone.
Maybe I'm the one who always make a small matter becomes big problems.
And maybe I don't deserve to be happy like others too.
How I wish I can leave this world.
I want to be alone like far away from people around me.
Life is getting hard day by day.
When I see other's smile.
It is just feel like I want to be like them too.
No time to think negativity.
I'm turning 26 years old this year.
But still be a messy and dependent girl.
I don't know how to find myself.
I don't know how to love myself.
I don't know what I want.
I pretend not to think any problems that I faced.
I pretend to be happy and smile brightly in front of my friends and families.
But when at night, silently crying in my room.
What a pity woman I am, aitee ?
No life at all. HAHAHA
When I watched a youtube video from Sister Aida Azlin. She makes me more calm and smile again. There is a reason why all this happen to us. Why we need to faced all this alone. Because Allah know that you can manage it and of course He loves you. No matter it is, don't ever give up and move on to a better place that you dream of. Happy Thursday everyone!