Sometimes, I'm just keep thinking about my past and my future.
What I've done & what I will be in future.
Honestly, I'm scared for now.
Scared that I'm failed be a good daughter, a kind sister, understanding friends and a patience woman.
When I'm feel down and sad.
The way to release it by cry only.
I will cry as much as I want.
Because that's the way I am to calm myself.
Time to time.
I don't know how many hours, minutes, seconds or years more that I have.
If the times is coming.
Dear Allah.
Don't make them feel sad of me.
I wanna go with peace and big smile.
Days by days.
Whole body weak.
Eyes keep blurring.
Lips full of ulcer.
Difficult to breath every night.
Too much medicines that I need to take everyday.
But I'll keep my mind to positive.